Happy 2010!

Just got up from a really long nap. And one of my "resolutions" for the year is to sleep less and workout more. So far, not doing so well with the sleeping thing. I've worked out 3 out of 4 days though of this new year, so I'm proud of that.

Maybe another goal for me this year should be to blog more? I love reading blogs but am just self conscious about what I write in mine.

Anyway, yesterday I went on a really great hike/walk with my friend Christine and we talked about a lot. I feel so much lighter having spoken to her about things like my relationships, because they are things I have not verbalized either at all, or in a really long time.

She inspires me to be a stronger and more confident me because I see that in her and really admire it.

As far as some realizations I had after talking to Stiney....I realize that maybe I really am not ready for a serious long term relationship because I have been content to go back and forth, for going on 3 years, with someone I love, but not with someone that I'm not sure I can see myself being with forever. I realized that maybe it's ok to not be ready and I don't need to feel so anxious to find the "one" when really I'm still not fully ready to give of myself completely.

IT IS OK. It is ok to feel how I feel and be where I'm at, because even if I don't think I am making any progress personally, I am. I am farther along that I was a year ago, as far as with a job. I just need to be honest with myself and not be afraid to face the music when it comes to what is really going on in my life.

Another goal, to appreciate and nurture my relationships with people. To be more present in them, and not always online when I'm home. The list could seriously go on and on, and I think I'm going to write some down for myself by my bed so I can think about them more clearly.

Another huge goal could be to get organized!!!!! My life needs some serious organization!!

All for now.

Feliz Ano Nuevo, Bon Anne, Happy New year!!