That's the song that I have in my head right now. This is the first time I've blogged in almost a year! Kind of sad. I just feel like getting a few things out.
I quit my job that I had been working at for 11 months, so glad to be done with that phase of my working life. I am looking for new jobs and had an interview at YMCA for a case management position and have another one at the end of the month with Rady Children's Hospital. This one I was really excited about but am coming to terms with the fact that the job will probably be gone by the time I'm back from Miami.
That's right, on another note, I'm going to Miami, FL for 10 days to visit my grandparents who I haven't seen in about 5 years, and my aunt and cousin who I haven't seen in at least, I don't even know maybe 10 years?? Wow, crazy. I'm a little nervous to go out there on my own because I think it might be "I'm in the spot light" overload and I don't know how I'll deal with that. I feel like it's my duty to go out there and see my family and I'm not proud that that is how I see this trip.
There is a lot to think about on the job front and I'm really lucky to be able to take a trip like this and I think it's meant to be that I have this time to go see them.
I'm in kind of a pensive state right now in relation to my relationship with RG. We talked about a lot last night, and I'm glad we did, and I'm glad he brought it up, but it was a little bit hard and just kind of leaves me feeling unsure. I didn't realize how much he worried about things like me finding another guy and not being happy with him in the long term.
All I know is right now I love him and want to be with him for the long term. But there's not much we can do aside from taking things one day at a time.
I wish I blogged more consistently. I think I'm afraid of people judging what I write but oh well, here goes.
Hopefully it will be less than 11 months before I write again!
