AHHHHHH I freaking haven't written in so long I don't even know where to begin. My sister has got me going crazy reading all these different blogs that she has bookmarked on her page. It's kind of like another form of stalking someone instead of the usual ways via myspace and facebook, which I am definitely guilty of doing.
After looking at some of them...How are so many mormons so perfect? I am sure this is entirely untrue but when I look at some of their blogs I'm like "damn, you guys have perfect lives and perfect families and you're smart and pretty and how is this possible?!?!?" and yes, I am jealous. How is it possible that all of these people have such interesting lives, or is it just that they choose to post about the most interesting things?? Call me a freaking cynic, cause that's what I am, but how do all of these people seem to have almost perfect lives???
I think that is the impression I always get when reading different peoples' blogs even though I know it's not true.
One reason I think I stopped blogging after two is because I don't think I have a very interesting life. I am also not very creative or inspiring. I do not write poetry, take pictures, listen to cool, unheard of bands....I think I am just in awe of all of these cool people out there and I'm like there's no way I can even compete with that.
I know, I have issues. That's me.
To sum up the past 3 months. I finished my bachelors degrees in Spanish and Psychology at Cal State San Marcos. SO glad to be done. I got a job working for a non-profit called New Alternatives Inc. and I am working at the North County Assessment Center in Vista, CA with foster kids. I like it so far and just feel lucky to have a job, even though it pays nada. OH well, it's better than absolutely nada.
Just got out of an unsteady relationship (again) and I know it's for the best and hoping that it actually lasts this time. We've been going back and forth for over a year and it's time to move on...for the both of us. Right now I am feeling good about it and hope that lasts. It will be good to be single for a while even though I know I would like to be in a relationship and one where I really feel connected. RG is great but he is just not the one for me but that doesn't mean I don't love him like a best friend.
Went to a couple of get togethers this weekend and they were fun, got to see a friend who just turned 30 that I hadn't seen in a while. I also met a psychologist there and we talked about different options for grad school. This week I am interested in getting my LCSW. (Licensed Certified Social Worker) because the psychologist told me that if I plan on staying in So. Cal., they aren't paid that much under actual psychologists. HEY that sounds good to me seeing as how I'm starting to realize living off of $20,000/year is probably not going to hack it for long. OYE.
I should cut this one here because I don't think anyone will read this far anyway!! Happy Sunday to ya'll.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Tuesday night is Idol night
Yes it is sad that I know the days of the week by what's on tv and vice versa. But anyway, it was just a catchy title for this entry. Today I didn't go to my first class because I wanted to sleep and didn't think I'd be missing too much in class. I went to my second class though. Many things to do before the semester ends so even though I know it's getting closer it still feels a ways away.
Today after I stayed after at school to get some work done, I went to get gas and go to Laney's. I asked her if she'd go on a walk with me because I'm trying to get active again and lose a little weight for Summer perhaps. I already feel better tonight after our walk, even though it was only about 20 minutes. It still felt good. It was nice to sweat a little and not just because it's hot in my truck.
I don't have anything profound or exceptionally exciting to say but just felt like writing.
Tomorrow I have class from 9-1050am and 1130-1245pm, then I'm going to stay after and do some work and then I'm tutoring at 315 and then having dinner with Laney and Stiney at 6 at the sushi lounge. Que deliciosa! Oui oui ho ho. :x
OH yeah, I sent a resume into this internship for the month of July. It would be working with immigrant kids and forms of media like photography and writing, I don't quite know a lot about it but it just sounds so cool and it would give me a great reason to speak Spanish and I find it's a lot less intimidating to speak to kids in Spanish than adults. But so far I'm not able to set an interview time because I have class during the times they are interviewing. Anyway, that would be a cool opportunity so I'll just have to wait and see.
Ayer en mi clase de espanol, mi profesora nos mostro un video de Granada. Estaba muy emocionante porque vivi alli por 10 meses. Era el tiempo de mi vida y cada vez que veo fotos de la ciudad o pienso en la ciudad, quiero regresarme. Ah que tiempos tan divertidos.
Quiero estar capaz de hablar mejor en espanol. Es un poco triste and annoying que no hablo mejor porque espanol es una de mis especialidades en la escuela. Se que tengo que practicar mas, se que esto es el unico manera en que puedo mejorar.
Venga, pues, mientras que estoy escribiendo en espanol, quiero decirles que voy al concierto de Juanes con Christine. Me encanta la musica de Juanes. El es EL HOMBRE. Si no lo conoces, escuchate a una cancion y video en youtube. Voy a buscar uno.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8OG_KPab2kw
No se como poner un video en mi blog pero oh well, I put a link to his song Fotografia con Nellie Furtado.
Bueno, me voy! Buenas noches hasta manana los lunis y los ninos nos vamos a la cama! Un beson!
Today after I stayed after at school to get some work done, I went to get gas and go to Laney's. I asked her if she'd go on a walk with me because I'm trying to get active again and lose a little weight for Summer perhaps. I already feel better tonight after our walk, even though it was only about 20 minutes. It still felt good. It was nice to sweat a little and not just because it's hot in my truck.
I don't have anything profound or exceptionally exciting to say but just felt like writing.
Tomorrow I have class from 9-1050am and 1130-1245pm, then I'm going to stay after and do some work and then I'm tutoring at 315 and then having dinner with Laney and Stiney at 6 at the sushi lounge. Que deliciosa! Oui oui ho ho. :x
OH yeah, I sent a resume into this internship for the month of July. It would be working with immigrant kids and forms of media like photography and writing, I don't quite know a lot about it but it just sounds so cool and it would give me a great reason to speak Spanish and I find it's a lot less intimidating to speak to kids in Spanish than adults. But so far I'm not able to set an interview time because I have class during the times they are interviewing. Anyway, that would be a cool opportunity so I'll just have to wait and see.
Ayer en mi clase de espanol, mi profesora nos mostro un video de Granada. Estaba muy emocionante porque vivi alli por 10 meses. Era el tiempo de mi vida y cada vez que veo fotos de la ciudad o pienso en la ciudad, quiero regresarme. Ah que tiempos tan divertidos.
Quiero estar capaz de hablar mejor en espanol. Es un poco triste and annoying que no hablo mejor porque espanol es una de mis especialidades en la escuela. Se que tengo que practicar mas, se que esto es el unico manera en que puedo mejorar.
Venga, pues, mientras que estoy escribiendo en espanol, quiero decirles que voy al concierto de Juanes con Christine. Me encanta la musica de Juanes. El es EL HOMBRE. Si no lo conoces, escuchate a una cancion y video en youtube. Voy a buscar uno.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8OG_KPab2kw
No se como poner un video en mi blog pero oh well, I put a link to his song Fotografia con Nellie Furtado.
Bueno, me voy! Buenas noches hasta manana los lunis y los ninos nos vamos a la cama! Un beson!
Monday, April 28, 2008
First blog ever
Good evening blog. This is the first time I have ever blogged in my life and it just seems like a good place and time to start.
I got inspired to start a blog by both my sister and Jason Mraz, a freaking amazing genius of a guy. I want to be his friend. He always has something cool to say and also has opened my eyes to a few things.
I watched this video he had posted on his blog that was of a brain scientist talking about her own stroke. I won't say how, but there were things that she said that I could definitely relate to. I'm going to try to post it now. Hmm well if I were blog savvy I could probably figure this out but since I'm not, it will have to wait until a later post when I learn how to post videos.
I thought it was a good time to start a blog because my friend that is a boy and I broke up on the 26th (of April) and I will soon be a college graduate...as of May 17, 2008!! Halle-freakin-lujah. It's about time...it's only taken 5.5 years!! Hey but it's alright, I'd rather it be now than never and I have to say I am happy to be graduating in the year 2008 since 8 is one of my favorite numbers, I know that is weird. But it's a good number.
I just kind of feel like I want to start out fresh. I was really sad about our relationship ending, me and my guy, but I knew even when it happened that it was the best thing for both of us and still is. Our relationship didn't have much promise for a future but I know I was holding onto it because we had been such good friends for so long. As my friend Laney and I agreed, we have history but not necessarily a future. Best friends or really good friends do not necessarily make the best boyfriends, but I'm glad we tried and definitely do not regret it.
Something that is bugging me right now is that he called me today to see how my day was. I didn't really understand why, well I think he was worried that I was going to be really upset and depressed and not able to handle it well. I didn't really want to talk to him for a while but called him back anyway and we just talked about our days and I asked him if I should still send grad announcements to his mom and sister and brother-in-law and grandma. I just wasn't expecting to talk to him so soon, I just need some time without him, so hopefully we won't talk again until around my graduation time, not to be mean but we just need space.
I just got paranoid that a future boss will read this so I'm hoping that's not true, not that there's anything I'm ashamed of or anything but I just kind of want to be this anonymous floater out in the blog world, where no one knows me and maybe even know one reads me but it is a place for me to release my thoughts and mind blabber.
I think there are many other things I could say but I'm going to end my first blog here and just say I am ready for a change. I know they are inevitable at this point in my life, but I really want to work on learning about myself and figuring out who I am and what I want in life. As of recently, or maybe the past year or so, I have been escaping reality a lot by watching hours of TV and sleeping a lot. I know they are two of my worst vices that hopefully entering the real world will help me change...although it could just make them worse.
Ciao bellos PS here is the link to the video I was talking about that I saw on Jason Mraz's blog.
Click it, it's good stuff
http://www.ted.com/index.php/speakers/view/id/203
I got inspired to start a blog by both my sister and Jason Mraz, a freaking amazing genius of a guy. I want to be his friend. He always has something cool to say and also has opened my eyes to a few things.
I watched this video he had posted on his blog that was of a brain scientist talking about her own stroke. I won't say how, but there were things that she said that I could definitely relate to. I'm going to try to post it now. Hmm well if I were blog savvy I could probably figure this out but since I'm not, it will have to wait until a later post when I learn how to post videos.
I thought it was a good time to start a blog because my friend that is a boy and I broke up on the 26th (of April) and I will soon be a college graduate...as of May 17, 2008!! Halle-freakin-lujah. It's about time...it's only taken 5.5 years!! Hey but it's alright, I'd rather it be now than never and I have to say I am happy to be graduating in the year 2008 since 8 is one of my favorite numbers, I know that is weird. But it's a good number.
I just kind of feel like I want to start out fresh. I was really sad about our relationship ending, me and my guy, but I knew even when it happened that it was the best thing for both of us and still is. Our relationship didn't have much promise for a future but I know I was holding onto it because we had been such good friends for so long. As my friend Laney and I agreed, we have history but not necessarily a future. Best friends or really good friends do not necessarily make the best boyfriends, but I'm glad we tried and definitely do not regret it.
Something that is bugging me right now is that he called me today to see how my day was. I didn't really understand why, well I think he was worried that I was going to be really upset and depressed and not able to handle it well. I didn't really want to talk to him for a while but called him back anyway and we just talked about our days and I asked him if I should still send grad announcements to his mom and sister and brother-in-law and grandma. I just wasn't expecting to talk to him so soon, I just need some time without him, so hopefully we won't talk again until around my graduation time, not to be mean but we just need space.
I just got paranoid that a future boss will read this so I'm hoping that's not true, not that there's anything I'm ashamed of or anything but I just kind of want to be this anonymous floater out in the blog world, where no one knows me and maybe even know one reads me but it is a place for me to release my thoughts and mind blabber.
I think there are many other things I could say but I'm going to end my first blog here and just say I am ready for a change. I know they are inevitable at this point in my life, but I really want to work on learning about myself and figuring out who I am and what I want in life. As of recently, or maybe the past year or so, I have been escaping reality a lot by watching hours of TV and sleeping a lot. I know they are two of my worst vices that hopefully entering the real world will help me change...although it could just make them worse.
Ciao bellos PS here is the link to the video I was talking about that I saw on Jason Mraz's blog.
Click it, it's good stuff
http://www.ted.com/index.php/speakers/view/id/203
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