First blog ever

Good evening blog. This is the first time I have ever blogged in my life and it just seems like a good place and time to start.

I got inspired to start a blog by both my sister and Jason Mraz, a freaking amazing genius of a guy. I want to be his friend. He always has something cool to say and also has opened my eyes to a few things.

I watched this video he had posted on his blog that was of a brain scientist talking about her own stroke. I won't say how, but there were things that she said that I could definitely relate to. I'm going to try to post it now. Hmm well if I were blog savvy I could probably figure this out but since I'm not, it will have to wait until a later post when I learn how to post videos.

I thought it was a good time to start a blog because my friend that is a boy and I broke up on the 26th (of April) and I will soon be a college graduate...as of May 17, 2008!! Halle-freakin-lujah. It's about time...it's only taken 5.5 years!! Hey but it's alright, I'd rather it be now than never and I have to say I am happy to be graduating in the year 2008 since 8 is one of my favorite numbers, I know that is weird. But it's a good number.

I just kind of feel like I want to start out fresh. I was really sad about our relationship ending, me and my guy, but I knew even when it happened that it was the best thing for both of us and still is. Our relationship didn't have much promise for a future but I know I was holding onto it because we had been such good friends for so long. As my friend Laney and I agreed, we have history but not necessarily a future. Best friends or really good friends do not necessarily make the best boyfriends, but I'm glad we tried and definitely do not regret it.

Something that is bugging me right now is that he called me today to see how my day was. I didn't really understand why, well I think he was worried that I was going to be really upset and depressed and not able to handle it well. I didn't really want to talk to him for a while but called him back anyway and we just talked about our days and I asked him if I should still send grad announcements to his mom and sister and brother-in-law and grandma. I just wasn't expecting to talk to him so soon, I just need some time without him, so hopefully we won't talk again until around my graduation time, not to be mean but we just need space.

I just got paranoid that a future boss will read this so I'm hoping that's not true, not that there's anything I'm ashamed of or anything but I just kind of want to be this anonymous floater out in the blog world, where no one knows me and maybe even know one reads me but it is a place for me to release my thoughts and mind blabber.

I think there are many other things I could say but I'm going to end my first blog here and just say I am ready for a change. I know they are inevitable at this point in my life, but I really want to work on learning about myself and figuring out who I am and what I want in life. As of recently, or maybe the past year or so, I have been escaping reality a lot by watching hours of TV and sleeping a lot. I know they are two of my worst vices that hopefully entering the real world will help me change...although it could just make them worse.

Ciao bellos PS here is the link to the video I was talking about that I saw on Jason Mraz's blog.
Click it, it's good stuff
http://www.ted.com/index.php/speakers/view/id/203